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And afterwards, I lay there, thinking of you

Still getting chills down my spine

Still getting butterflies in the pit of my belly

Still feeling warmth between my thighs

 

Afterwards, I lay there, thinking of you

Still feeling my fingers in your hair

Still feeling your tongue in my mouth

Still feeling you there…and there…

And right there

 

Afterwards, I lay there, thinking of you

Chasing me as I tried to hide

Pleasing me until I damn near cried

You…inside

Me…inside

 

Afterwards, I lay there, thinking of you

Still feeling your breath on my neck

Still feeling your hands gripping my sides

Still excited

Still getting wet

 

Attention

10/23/2008

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I don’t want all of your attention all of the time
I just want all of your attention when I’m fortunate enough for it to be mine
And to keep it I spin rhymes and similes
Speckled with commas and apostrophes
Could I possibly be
A syllable of the word that is you
If not I’ll settle for being your accent mark
Cause whether you realize it or not you already are mine
Leaving a small piece of you behind every time I am graced with your presence
Yes you accent me
Forever changing the way I am pronounced
.

I don’t want all of your attention all of the time
I just want all of your attention when I’m fortunate enough for it to be mine
And to keep it I spin rhymes and metaphors
In reality I don’t see you often so
That must be what dreams are for
I can’t ignore
The fact that you awaken senses I forgot I had
Like being in the dark for so long that
When I step into your light I’m blinded...

You are refreshing
Not like soda cause
You're not full of empty calories and sugar that's sweet for the moment then gives me a cavity
No you are chock full of the nutrients my mind needs
You are refreshing
Not like a quick shower after the gym
No you are refreshing like a gallon of water after walking across the Sahara in a sweat suit

I mean

I don’t want all of your attention all of the time
I just want all of your attention when I’m fortunate enough for it to be mine
Because your attention is priceless
Worth more than diamonds, platinum, and gold combined
You attention is priceless like memories and
I just want us to make memories
Man...

Forgive me if I sound needy but
You know it's been awhile hope I’m not being greedy but
I just can't help but feed off of you
Cause with others I was gluttonous but still left unsatisfied
But it only takes a little bit of you to fill me up...

However I am not stingy
I will be you buffet
Whether the appetite is mental, emotional, physical or spiritual
I will always have the food you crave...
Season it according to your taste...
Serve you using my soul as a plate

Plus I’ll feed you.

Giving you the attention I so selfishly take from you
I don’t want all of your attention all of the time
I just want all of your attention when I’m fortunate enough for it to be mine…
Just know that my attention is always yours.
All of the time
All of my rhymes
Are written specifically with you in mind
No matter what moves I’m making
My attention is always yours for the taking
I don’t want all of your attention all of the time
I just want all of your attention when I’m fortunate enough for it to be mine…

Just know that my attention is always yours.

 

Jaded

10/23/2008

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I'm so jaded and it seems

That my disbelief can not be relieved

Cause I'm so used to being deceived

That nonchalant is now how I'm perceived

Cause I'm so jaded and skeptical as hell

I don't try to hide it so I'm sure you can tell

And if my demeanor doesn't seem right to you

I'm sure that you'd be jaded too

If disappointment was your life's theme

You know, they say things aren't always what they seem


And I say that what they say is right

Cause things usually aren't how they appear at first sight

I'm so jaded that I keep up my guard

Although for so long I tried so hard

To remain optimistic in the midst of my scars

But being fooled by mirages and facades

Made me jaded and skeptical as hell

I don't try to hide it so I'm sure you can tell

That I'm not the girl I used to be

Broken dreams made a jaded woman out of me

I still dream about my goals day and night

I'm just more reluctant to dream big cause I'm afraid of heights

So I only allow myself to create dreams so tall

Because the bigger they are, the harder they fall

I'm so jaded that I expect most of you

To disappear like many others tend to do

So I limit how much emotion I can show

Plus I bubble wrap my heart to prepare it for the blow


Cause I'm so jaded I must protect myself

Getting my hopes up too high endangers my health

I'm not pessimistic, not an idealist

Trying to convince myself I’m just a realist

I’m so jaded, more and more each day

So I cry out to God when I pray

Lord, please take this feeling away

Cause I'm so jaded and I don't want to be this way.



 


 

Problem

10/22/2008

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I am a woman.
We are the minority.
I am poor.
We are the minority.
I am queer.
We are the minority.
I am Black.
We are the minority.
At least that’s what they say
We are such a minority
But our brothers are the majority in jail
Our sisters are the majority of new HIV cases
Our children are the majority in single parent households
Our fathers are the majority of deadbeat dads
Our mothers are the majority of underage moms
We are the minorities
But when it comes to negativity
We are an overwhelming majority.
We got MAJOR issues.
But everyone wants to turn away
And be temporarily blinded
Everyone wants to pretend that they don’t see the problems
Drug dealers essentially helping their own people commit suicide
By selling them slow deaths
They might as well provide the gun for people to kill themselves
Cops are the leaders of the drug business
Who do you think supplies to the dealers?
Then they turn around and lock those dealers up
And call in the next string of kids
Who just wanna make a little money to help mama put food on the table
I see something wrong with that
Young girls who feel like their only asset is their bodies
I see something wrong with that
Politicians who seduce the people with empty promises
I see something wrong with that
A man who is innocent almost lost his life Tuesday at 7pm
And the threat of death still lingers over his head
I se something wrong with that
How long are you going to choose to be blind?
If you’re not apart of the solution, you’re apart of the problem.
If you’re not apart of the solution, you’re apart of the problem.
If you’re not apart of the REVOLUTION, you’re apart of the problem.

 

Trip

10/20/2008

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Can I take a trip inside your mind/ and see what there is for me to find/ I want to be the Christopher Columbus of your thoughts/ I would try to sneak in but I’d probably get caught/ So instead I ask your permission to let me explore/ so I can discover what’s behind your mind’s doors/ the first one might reveal what causes you stress/ so I’ll get out some oil and massage your thought process/ I can guess what lies behind door number 2/ it’s how you feel about how I feel about you/ so obviously what lies behind door number 3/ is how you truly feel about me/ something important is behind door 4/ your goals, your wishes, and what you hope for/ door number five is locked and boarded up too/ so it must contain what is painful to you/ five different rooms that I would like to see/ once you’re ready to give me the key/ I’ll sail on your brain waves until I find/ each of the five doors inside your mind

 
 

Five Words

wisdom
strength
courage
peace
love

i pray for the wisdom to recognize what's real
I pray for the strength to say what I feel
I pray for the courage to give someone my heart again
I pray for peace of mind when each day begins
I pray for true love and I pray my prayers are heard
I live my life by these five words

love
peace
courage
strength
wisdom

 
 

you make me feel so new
brand new like a toy a child opens at Christmas
but do not be mistaken because i will not play with you
i take you out of your box and clean you
rearrange your accessories
and back into the box you go
high on a shelf so i can look at you
marvel at your beauty from afar
your hands are too precious for me to intertwine your fingers with mine
your arms too special to be wrapped around my neck
your lips too exquisite to lightly brush against mine
you are the ultimate
and i am not worthy
but you make me feel so new
so damn brand new
like a car received as a sweet 16 present
and as much as i want to drive you
wild
i just can't bring myself to slide behind the wheel
my back isn't graceful enough to rest against your seat
your tires too perfect to ever touch the road
my reflection not pretty enough to be seen in your mirrors
you are the ultimate
and i am not worthy
you make me feel new
brand new
like resurrections, rebirths, epiphanies ...
every time you rise i step back cause you are on another level
when you walk i stand still cause the sound of my footsteps is not as beautiful as the sound of yours
when you open your eyes i close mine because my eyes are not brown enough to witness things as you do
when you open your mouth i close mine cause my words are not profound enough to spoken with yours
you are the ultimate
and i am not worthy...

you are the ultimate.
and i am not ready.

 

Mirror

10/20/2008

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I want to see my reflection in her eyes
Cause through she
I see me in a different light
i wonder if she knows that in order to truly see my reflection
she has to be my mirror
and so
i hold her in front of me
so i can see me as she does
all the while i'm hoping that
she is using me as her mirror
i wonder if she knows that i see her as beauty
she is the manifestation of everything i dreamed of
i want her to
look into my eyes and see herself as i see her
majestic, exquisite, magnificent in all her flaws
i hope she will use me as her mirror
because i will only reflect the positive
no "i look fat/bad hair day/bags under eyes"...
only beauty
and i hope that when i look at me through her eyes i will see nothing but the extraordinary in me
no fun house mirror, no distorted warped images
the images we reflect of each other are crystal clear.

 
 

I know i shouldn't reminisce on
What coulda shoulda and woulda been
But every time i think of her
I remember how we started off as friends
Then our relationship began to transcend into something more intimate

So...
I treated her like a love bank
And decided to invest my faith
And just like the economy we rose and we fell
But i remained confident in my stock
I dismissed buyouts of the past
And dreamed of the merger we could have

You see...
i visualized her and me being a monopoly
Like the wal mart of love
Cause i thought we had everything we needed
Plus shit we didn't know we wanted until we walked in the store
I thought our bonds could never be broken
We would surely be able to cash in one day
Cause i invested in her...
She was my 401K.

Each and every day
I let her know that i would be her atm
She could withdraw whatever she needed from me
As long as she vowed to deposit the same

But something changed
the value of my investment started to depreciate
Who would have known the market would crash
the interest i had earned meant nothing now
and once again i'm left

In debt.

 

    Nfinite Dream

    I wish I could be a professional loverwriter. That's what I'm good at. Loving and writing about it.